To Face My Brokenness

To Face My Brokenness

Hello!

How are you doing today?

I’m here with a little poem I wrote a few weeks back.

I’d love for you to take a look!


To Face My Brokenness

I once tried to face my brokenness head-on.

It terrified me.

I saw for the first time the roiling turmoil I had hidden so well.

The depths of its concealment made me cold with fear.

I saw rebellion lurking in the shadows.

I found seething doubts I did not know about.

I tried to face my brokenness head-on.

I turned and fled instead.

The reality of my wickedness sank in.

I was devastated.

I wanted to fight it.

I wanted to make it flee, instead of me.

But I couldn’t.

I apprehended what I had not grasped before.

By ignoring my brokenness, I had thought I was self-ruling.

But all the while, the morbid evil was chaining me.

While I believed the lie that on my own I was free, sin was making me its slave.

My plight was now apparent.

I was stuck.

I was chained to the very wickedness inside me.

I was subjugated by my own human nature.

I was irate at this evil and desperate for help.

I cried out to God in my pain.

He saw my brokenness, saw the poison in my heart.

He knew my bleak and twisted thoughts.

He had watched my corruptness and greed.

He had seen all of the filthy things I had done.

He had heard the contemptible things I said and thought and felt.

The base acts I had committed.

He had viewed my darkest thoughts and seen the wickedness I had tried to veil.

What hope did I have?

He had seen every wretched, unlovable thing I had ever done.

Yes, God knew what I had done.

Yet He loved me anyway.

Jesus Christ, God’s Son, faced my brokenness head-on.

And He vanquished it.


Until next time,
Ellie

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8 thoughts on “To Face My Brokenness

  1. Like this very much. I don’t remember any other free verse right now that impressed me but this one surely does. How expressive and uplifting to have thoughts put into words. So glad you are able to write so fluently and meaningfully. Blesses my heart! Luv U. G’Ma

    1. Thank you, Grandma. I am so thankful that Christ gives us a way to belong to Him! Love you bunches and can’t wait to see you again. 😀

  2. Great job Ellie! It is never easy to see ourselves as God sees us! Very proud of you and know your grandmother Susie would be also!

  3. Wow love it ..So very well written and so very true..God sees all our brokenness and still loves us..WOW and I am so thankful he does..God bless you

    1. Thank you, Mrs. Debbie! I am so very glad, too. 🙂 I’m thankful that God is so much bigger than our sins, and that He has chosen to forgive us!

  4. Ellie, you have expressed well the feelings and thoughts of many. Thank you! May God continue to bless your work and your heart. 🙂

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